The 13 days that
changed me
I decided to tell my story by writing day by day(the
important ones of course) of how I discovered myself. While this takes the form
of a daily journal I am writing now, in December of 2017, not in 2015 when
these events took place
1.
January 11th
I think my story of discovery really beings on the day of Sunday
January 11th 2015. It started like a regular day. I invited my
friend over to play video games, but since he has a large family he had to go
home early to attend to his obligations. This made me sad. And the more I thought
about it the more I realized how pathetic my life was. At the time I was not in
a regular public school but in an “alternative school”(I’ll write more, and exclusively
about that another time) I went up into my room and tried to search for
my old assistant principal who I believed wronged me. That didn’t work and I carried
on with my day
2.
January 19th
This is a VERY important day. Since like I previously
stated, did not go to a normal school but an alternative school I was not given
the day off for martin Luther king day like all of my friends. This infuriated
and enraged me. I don’t remember the exact chain of events but I ended up
getting into a fight with the staff. On the bus ride home, remembering it was
my aunt Frannys birthday I gave her a call. She detected I was upset and told
me to text her daughter(Vanessa) , I did and over the next 10 hours we must
have exchanged over 100 text messages between the two of us.
3.
January 28th
I believe that this was perhaps ,my lowest point. On this
day I got restrained 3 times, once so badly I was screaming pain. I remember
when my mom picked me up she in tears said she just didn’t know where I was
gonna end up in society
4.
February 9th
On this day I got in more trouble. I went home in tears(as
was common for me growing up). But this day stands out for one reason: After my
dad got home he took me to the local roadside convenience store for some grape
soda and candy bars. The store owner was so nice to me that it changed my
entire day
5.
March 1st
This was a rough day. First lets have some background: I had
just started using twitter at this time and had already started making waves.
My brother was trying to convince my dad that my use of twitter was affecting
my behavior(lol). It came to a head at breakfast: my brother left the table after
we got into an argument. He ran away and I called him a pussy. He came charging
back and I reacted by pushing him away. We got into a fight and I threw a chair
at the wall. I ran out into the snow afterwards and laid down in a
snowbank before my dad came to pick me
up.
6.
March 7th
two things happened on this day.
First my team won the YMCA basketball championship and I was named MVP. The second
thing was when I went out to the Italian restaurant for my mom and her
boyfriends joint bday party. I was really enjoying it until I saw an old
classmate working there as a hostess and realized that I didn’t even have my
permit This deeply saddened me and I went
outside for a walk which for some reason upset my brother
7.
March 19th (start when I wake up December
14th)
This was the day that I went down to my grandfathers house
for a little vacation. We arrived at around afternoon and me and my cousin (who
was living there at the time) instantly hit it off playing Xbox etc.
8.
March 21st
This had to be perhaps the high point of the trip. The day
started off with my my cousin and his grandmothers(who is my aunt its hard to explain
lol) boyfriends son going to some old country church for my grandfathers
sisters 50th wedding anniversary. The three of us had a good ole
time running around in the fields before we decided to go to the backroom of
the church and hide from the adults. After this we decided to go for a walk to
the store at night.For I don’t remember how long we chatted and explored the
small town of Lebanon but I think the thing is most unforgettable is after running
back from the store the three of us all sat down on the sidewalk and just
started laughing our assees off. And the fun wasn’t over. Into the wee hours of
the night we prank called stores all around the country.
9.
March 22nd
After getting minimal sleep we had another full day ahead of
us. Uncle Mark took us on a tour of rural southwestern virginia. While there
were lots of sights to see I think the one that will forever be engraved in my
mind is when we encountered the town of Saltville. Instantly I was taken back
to a simpler time, that was how memorizing the town was.
110.
March 23rd
I didn’t get any sleep the previous night. That was not
good. After getting pizza My cousin his
friend and I walked downtown before
finally ending up at the park. I got bored and I called for Aunt cathy(tylers
grandmother) to pick me up. When tyler got back he called me a pussy. I asked
him to fight and he obliged. I thought since we agreed it would be legal(that’s
what I was taught growing up). That was not the case. For my whole life I wanted
someone to punch around just like my brother did to me. I thought it would make
me feel better. The opposite was true: I was devasted by fighting him. But on
that day I had my epiphany, which I have
kept with me in my heart since that day
111.
May 9th
This was the day of prom. Since I wasn’t even in regular
high school I of course could not attend. This made me sad. Suddenly I remembered
a girl in kingergarten who when I was sad and crying. Combed her fingers through
my hair( I remember her dress design: plaid blue. And she had a bow in her
hair). I contacted her on facebook and talked to her. From this day forward, I no
longer looked back into the past with sadness at “the way things were”.
112.
May 15th
On this day I encountered a former classmate at dairy queen.
Since she obviously drove there herself I was sad again that I was a “failure” I
cried and cried until I talked to a twitter friend. What she said(I don’t remember
what exactly) convinced me that I should no longer compare myself to others
113.
June 12th
This was a YUGE day, On this day I was accepted back into
normal high school for my senior year. I had a feeling that would be the case
but I nevere expected this: that It would occur right away so I wouldn’t have
to attend the alternative school over the summer
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